you see, humanity is in a state of ever clueless-ness. in our lifetime, there will always be things unknown. and even if the next generations discover what was unknown to us today, they will have their own unknowns. we cannot know it all. in fact, we are uncertain even of the very statement that there are next generations. we simply do not know.

one of the things we do not (and in fact try to) know is the future. what lies ahead? what is in store for me? don't we all want to know what's gonna happen so we could avoid the bad things and prolong the good times? but we are stuck with the fact that our limited understanding does not extend to what is yet to come. 

when you take a glance at someone, and you see something special with that someone, we commit the mistake of tagging that certain someone as the 'special someone.' We make the wrong turn of assuming that this someone can be OUR special someone. We overlook the fact that it was something about them, and NOT them, that made them special. then the mind and the body starts to function (or malfunction).

Whenever we see our 'special someone', we start to feel something really meant for our real special someone - that one who is special because of who he/she is, not just something with him/her - deserves.

Then you explode.
After that, you're in temporary utopia or a beautiful hell -
in other words, in a place you know wouldn't last.

Give it time.
Give it time you say.
Then it will turn out to what the best could be.

But in reality, you're nowhere.
You waste time, everything.


You then suddenly wish that it was all a dream.
Yes, that's what you call it.


A BIG MISTAKE.